You have kept count of my tossings;
put my tears in your bottle.
Are they not in your book?
Sometimes I can believe the lie that the Lord is not near. I think that He is disappointed in me, has forgotten, or simply does not care. And then I remember verses like the one above. He literally knows each tear that we cry, over our whole lifetime. That’s a lot of tears. And He is there with us, in the sorrow, whispering that He knows, and that He has been there too (Mark 14:34). There is a sweetness in sharing in the sufferings of Christ. My most intimate times with the Lord have not been in the joyful times but in the rock-bottom, tearful- mess moments, when I have finally allowed Him to draw near because I have had nowhere else to turn.
My roommate started playing a song on the piano the other day, and I asked her about it. The song was called “The Perfect Wisdom of our God” by Keith and Kristyn Getty, and I looked it up and listened to it. A line that really stood out to me was this:
Each strand of sorrow has a place
Within this tapestry of grace;
So through the trials I choose to say:
“Your perfect will in your perfect way.”
Our sorrow is not meaningless to God, though it may at times seem so to us. One day we will see the whole picture, when pain is a distant memory, and our tears have been lovingly wiped forever from our eyes (Rev 7:17). If we are in Christ, we know that our sorrow will turn to joy (Ps 126:5-6). Though the morning may seem to take longer than we anticipated, He has promised that it will come (Ps 30:5).
“I am not a theologian or a scholar, but I am very aware of the fact that pain is necessary to all of us. In my own life, I think I can honestly say that out of the deepest pain has come the strongest conviction of the presence of God and the love of God.”